I think I just spent an hour on a very long, rant blog about how angry I am for putting myself in this situation.
But as I posted it, I saw how much I didn't need my world to see that. I didn't need my world to know how regretful I feel towards you.. in that intensity. So, I deleted it.
I'm just..upset. I'm upset that at one point in my life, I thought you were the one. I honestly, and stupidly believed that you were the one I was going to be happy with. It makes me feel sick how wrong I was and how I'd terribly convinced myself.
Stupidest thought to ever cross my mind. Stupidest.
How awful.
But as I posted it, I saw how much I didn't need my world to see that. I didn't need my world to know how regretful I feel towards you.. in that intensity. So, I deleted it.
I'm just..upset. I'm upset that at one point in my life, I thought you were the one. I honestly, and stupidly believed that you were the one I was going to be happy with. It makes me feel sick how wrong I was and how I'd terribly convinced myself.
Stupidest thought to ever cross my mind. Stupidest.
How awful.
