Dear Kris,
I haven't any justifications or excuses. I only have my apologies and regrets. And if there is any one thing that I ever regret in my life, the one thing that eats at me at the thought of; it would be the the thought of you. And the thought of what I'd done. And hurting you and everyone else along the way.
It has taken me quite a while to even get to this letter. Just because I didn't know how to begin. How to write a letter for someone to forgive me. The odds are, you won't see this. Maybe ever. And it's not like you want anything to do with me anyway. And I've always completely understood that.
I can only be as sorry as I could. I've made my mistakes and I've learned from them. You've been a good friend to me longer than almost anyone that I know now. That only makes what I've done much worse.
One day, I'll forgive myself for what I've done. Maybe one day I'll even stop cringing at the thought of it. And I don't want to hope, but maybe one day you'll forgive me too. I never meant to cause you pain. I never meant to put you through anything like that. I was selfish and caught up with my own thoughts that I didn't consider you, I didn't think about you. And I created a mess that brought everyone else down with me.
I'm sorry. I'll forever be sorry. I'm sorry for ruining our friendship. For betraying you. If I could do anything, be anything to make up for what I did, then I would. But it's fine. I wouldn't want anything to do with me either. I'll make amends in my own way. Somehow.
You're still one of the most amazing people I've ever met. And you being so gracious about everything that has happened only reminds me of my utmost respect for you. You were a good friend, and I'm regretful I lost you.
It has taken me quite a while to even get to this letter. Just because I didn't know how to begin. How to write a letter for someone to forgive me. The odds are, you won't see this. Maybe ever. And it's not like you want anything to do with me anyway. And I've always completely understood that.
I can only be as sorry as I could. I've made my mistakes and I've learned from them. You've been a good friend to me longer than almost anyone that I know now. That only makes what I've done much worse.
One day, I'll forgive myself for what I've done. Maybe one day I'll even stop cringing at the thought of it. And I don't want to hope, but maybe one day you'll forgive me too. I never meant to cause you pain. I never meant to put you through anything like that. I was selfish and caught up with my own thoughts that I didn't consider you, I didn't think about you. And I created a mess that brought everyone else down with me.
I'm sorry. I'll forever be sorry. I'm sorry for ruining our friendship. For betraying you. If I could do anything, be anything to make up for what I did, then I would. But it's fine. I wouldn't want anything to do with me either. I'll make amends in my own way. Somehow.
You're still one of the most amazing people I've ever met. And you being so gracious about everything that has happened only reminds me of my utmost respect for you. You were a good friend, and I'm regretful I lost you.
Signed Sincerely,
Angerica Andrade
Angerica Andrade
