Consequences

No matter how confident or at ease I feel at that moment, I cannot keep forgetting the aftermath.

It is never, ever, ever a good thing. I can't keep taking. I don't understand how it is I never learn. I'm starting to think that this is my way of handling myself through life. But I refuse to accept that. It can't be, this can't be. If I have to wonder, then just say... it is never, ever, ever a good thing.

I can't always be that person to people. I can't do it. Over and over again. It's so exhausting to be literally exhausted by you. By all of you who count. I always pay the most. I don't want anymore.